可不可以爱我

可不可以爱我-卢学叡

词/曲:陈颖见

为什麽如此的安静
为什麽明明想靠近 却还在迟疑
努力的我保持镇定 努力开拓话题
最後却溃不成军

为什麽如此的美丽
深刻的烙在心里 最温柔的酷刑
每一天无法不想你
连闭上眼睛 怎麽都是你

你可不可以爱我 可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过
告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑能告一段落

你可不可以爱我 可不可以看我
反正看或不看 我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德 拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我 快乐还是寂寞


为什麽如此的美丽
深刻的烙在心里 最温柔的酷刑
每一天无法不想你
连闭上眼睛 怎麽都是你

你可不可以爱我 可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过 告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑能告一段落

你可不可以爱我 可不可以看我
反正看或不看 我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德 拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我 快乐还是寂寞

想念燃烧个不停
我快只剩灰烬
你是我的呼吸

你可不可以爱我 可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过 告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑能告一段落

你可不可以爱我 可不可以看我
我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德 拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我 能给我什麽
快乐还是寂寞

一首非常好听的本地创作，出自陈颖见的手笔，小美深情地演绎。第一次听就被旋律和歌词吸引住了。可不可以爱我？虽然我对自己没有一点把握。很爱一个人，但是却觉得自己那么的无力、无法把握着她，但却无法不爱她。努力的保持镇定，努力寻找话题，为的只是能多听听她的声音，让彼此间能感觉到一些联系，即使这一切都可能只是假象。别再逃避，真实的面对这感受，好吗？别考虑我的感受，告诉我你真的感受。拒绝并不是一种罪过，难过从来没有打倒过我。

hi everyone..

i dunno how many times i log on to blogger.com then click on the new post icon, staring a while, end up writing nothing. well, i've a lot of things to share but when i about to kick start, my machine jammed. i believe everyone has experienced this before.

recently, emptyness has haunted me days n nights. i feeling something has missing inside of me. mayb my lungs? liver? or mayb my heart??? i need someone to talk to, i need someone to share, i need someone to listen to me, i need to find back my passion, i need someone to brighten up my days n nights, i need money, i need a good job, i need some exercise, i need good songs, i need love, i need my friends, i need you...

KES 05

4 years of Uni life has finally ended. why am i so sure about it? because titus said that my hazardous waste has passed. thanks prof gazali and pn budhi for not failing me, as i know i really did badly in their paper.. so sorry..

just back from so called "last gathering" with coursemates which took place in titus house. ( choi!! last gathering.. LOL ) thanks titus for sharing us his place and his time.. i know u used to sleep very early.. paiseh.. again, thx for bringing us to the "2nd best" bak kut teh at ur place.. wonder how good is the best bak kut teh there taste like.. haha..

1st impression in getting in his house, good.. everything is tidy n clean.. lots of decoration.. everything is jz simple and nice.. a quite big house, i think will cost about 800k to 900k in that area.. am i right? i jz give a wild guess.. : )

well, last gathering, everyone seems to appreciate this gathering so much. as usual, laughters, shooting each others, "zat" each others.. things that are different from usual is everyone seems to be very brave to ask and try to clarify things that accumulated for 4 years. it's all because someone started the "true or dare" game, but ends up only "true or true" or more precisely "telling what we want to listen or true" game. : ) and the rule of the game is, no one can escape from being asked. might as well straight away ask la.. haha..

at one point, all of us is required to say something about coursemates. well, i refuse to as i prefer to keep silent unless u really pinpointing at me to say something. ya, yipken, u r right, u know me since f6 back in TARC, i believe u know me more than others, i jz dun wan to offend or make someone feel not good. well, this might be my weak point, but then to the certain extend, u have to be Mr. Yes. I admit then i might not be able to satisfying everyone, well, may be i'm not yet master in getting the balance of it. besides, regarding the decision making problem, i know i having that problem. it's due to my first problem, i just want to make everyone satisfy, and somehow i find it's hard. thx for reminding me, i know that, and i'm trying to improve on it.

titus, i said i would like to blog about u.. well, dun be afraid, i won't say bad things about u.. : ) thanks for being such a sincere friend to me throughout this 4 years. really appreciate that. u hold tight to your own principle and live your life with it. it's a good practise. i envy so much of your command of english and dota skill.. LOL.. in conclusion, u are a right friend to share with, someone with the most sincere heart. ^^ too much compliment to u? hahaha.. well, u deserve it. cheers! : )

lastly, (cz i feel lazy ady) coursemates of mine is not bad. is jz that some of their parts i found hard to accept. well, it will be nothing already after years. so, dun really mind what i said, u all deserve to live life u all wanted it to be. cheers! : )

May 05 2009

Sometimes, it's hard to get something u want, even though u wanted so badly, and putting a lot of efforts in getting it.

Cruel things happens everyday, and it won't show any mercy on you. So, we have to be cruel.

Why do u think u deserve to be better? Is that because u put in more efforts in relative to others? What make u think so?

People went through the hard way, grow faster.

Why people are on facebook? Because we need someone to kepoh about us, i mean "care". Why people are doing all the stupid quizes? Because we are not sure of how we are, and hoping the quiz will give u answer that u wanted to see, and persuade yourself that u r really good. Peace.. ^^

Who want to watch star treck with me? LOL.. i dun mind to treat, but only female, please.. I'm not a G.A.Y. :) dun get me wr0ng, i don't mean that it has to be only 2, watching in a big group will be fun too..

good luck, for your exam

sorry for letting my blog behind after i finish my exam. Well, everyone sure thinking that i will have more free time to spend. yes, i did, and i use it to hanging around with my friends until i crashed my car. =) well, it was not that bad "crashed". at least i'm still here. thanks me not going to fast & furious 4 *promoting* ^^

expecting me to describe the incident? well, i'm lazy to do so. i've told few people. just let them circulate it around. but in short, it's jz a turning-from-junction-into-main-road-not-realizing-car-in front-stopped-and-crashed-accident. ^^ the feeling of mine at that moment.. well, cool and calm.. what was in my mind is get the things done and go get the food i plan to pack. but then, my car really cannot move anymore, the technician said the “水柜” bocor ady.. so, end up following the 拖车佬's staff go police station to do a report. kena RM300 saman.. damn.. when everything was done, it's about 3pm ady (i think).


so, i'm here to express my feeling after i've no transport to go places that i wanted to go easily. too bad that i bang my car, so during the days jah in KL, i couldn't bring her to walk around. feel a bit sorry for u, jah.. but then, still hope that u will enjoy ur days in KL. ya, jah is a sweet girl from Thailand, my friend, knowing each other since GYS back in 2007. so fast 2 years have passed. ya, she brought another cute girl from Thailand as well, mei zhen?? sorry if i spell ur name wrongly. : ) nice to meet u..


有时候不是她不在乎你，而是你太在乎她。

hopefully, i'll get my car back next week. so that i can start doing things that i wanted to do.

btw, i'm not asking sympathy from u guys. i'm here jz to inform that my car sudah rosak. can't find u all yam cha. and i'm not calling u all out like last time cz i afraid i will mafan u all. hmmm.. everyone, please cheer up.. exam is ending soon. i doubt that is there any human kind will read this when they are busy preparing for exam. =P ultimately, someone i know won't view this for sure, i mean at this exam period. well, i've to be wise. dun lose my head..